Writing is like being able to put life into a snow globe. It takes the things that are too big and scary and reduces them into a form that I can put away when I want and look at from a distance. It also takes all that’s good in life and captures it into something I can take out when I want and look at close up and keep forever. It makes the bad things into something I can hold…and the good things into something I can hold onto. Both help so much that I need that little souvenir of life.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

And She Loved to the Very Bottom of her Heart

Though he hid it well, my husband was a very jealous man.

And here I was, unable to quit thinking about my first love, a childhood romance. But I had put away childish things for a more practical life, and I was happy.

Except I wasn’t.

So I met my love when my husband wasn’t home—briefly at first, and then more and more until I felt as if we could never truly be apart again. I looked forward to our trysts with an unparalleled giddiness and left feeling flushed and spent and whole.

“You're back,” an old college friend remarked over the phone. Had I been gone? “Yes, for a long time,” she said.

And then, after a phone call, I made the announcement. “I am guest columnist at a newspaper.” I still remember the way his face went red, then white with anger.

I never looked back.

Happy Valentine’s Day to all who love words as I do.

It’s Valentine’s Day. It’s not the day you run away from love. It’s the day you chase it down. ~Cameron in “Modern Family”


  1. Love this! And happy valentine's day to you, my friend!

  2. I will always remember when you shared this with me. How wonderful that you were reunited with your love of writing ...and never looked back. I'm happy for you.

  3. Wow. I remember when I left ... all I wanted was a decent car and when I found one on my own it was the final straw. One last round of verbal abuse. I remember thinking, why am I even here, he doesn't want what is best for me. I walked out the door and never looked back.

    Good for you for following your heart. Happy Valentine's Day, Tammy!

    Kathy M.

    Kathy M.

  4. So happy that you followed your heart. He obviously didn't deserve you.

    Happy Valentine's Day Tammy!

  5. Tammy--What a wonderful story. I hope today is a good one for you.

  6. Thanks, Beth, you too!

    Thanks, Becky. I tell everyone because I kept quiet too long out of embarrassment, and that's like handing over a "Get Out of Jail Free" card. Never again.

    Happy Valentine's Day to you too, Kathy, and good for you for being such a strong woman.

    You too, Lisa! Thanks! :)

    Thanks, Sioux. It has been. Happy Valentine's Day to you, too!

  7. You are the most deserving writer, ever. I am so glad you allowed your voice to be heard. A love affair with words really does make one happily ever after.

  8. Thanks, Linda! Hope you had a good V.D. too!

  9. Wonderful post and very wise words.

    Critter Alley

  10. Thanks, Tammy, for the inspiring post.

  11. Thanks so much, Pat!

    Thank you, Donna. Glad you stopped by!


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